happy NIU year!

these were taken on the first day of cny hahah

au revoir.

i hope this is the first and the last time that i suffer such a heartache brought abt by the breakdown of a friendship. maybe i feel so so saddened, because i wasnt even given time and chance to make sense of the situation, diagnose and come up with a solution. you handed me the verdict of this 6 year friendship without even trying to talk to me abt it, without even trying to work things out together with me.

you dont need me

and i guess i dont need you either.

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so this is it i guess.

wells, i just feel blessed that i still have many other close frens who stand by me and accept me for who i am 🙂

school blues.

sch’s starting tmr and i feel weird about it. it is irritating to have to break the inertia of nua-ness so as to get back to the books mode. argh. but in a way, i’m kinda looking forward to this brand new sem.. i wonder what does this sem has in store for me hmm.

btw, my digimon evolved to become a sukamon.

translation: sukamon = a shit-looking thingy

wth right? HAHAH

cute little monster.

pictures from the baking session with vic darling and my digimon from dear HAHAH.

about blueberry muffins & cookies.

the day was all about friendship and baking. i cant believe vic is gona leave in a few days time and i’m gona miss her loads 😦

the night was all about tears and heartaches.

the gift of tongues.

yesterday night, i was reading south of the border, west of the sun by haruki murakami. i reached the ending feeling very confused and it’s all because of my bad habit of skimming thru the books i read as i’m always anxious to know the ending. in the process of rushing through the book, i missed out on many minute details. i thought to myself, as much as i kept repeating this bad habit in my reading, i mustn’t do that to my life. i guess i wont want to look back at my life when i’m old and that all i can remember are just blurry snapshots of memories.

and i’m sad that i’m on the verge of losing a friend. i dont know what to do abt it. we have grown and changed so much that it’s quite hard to reach a common ground with such differences between us.  it’s such a strange and unpleasant feeling to see how much we have drifted apart. maybe i’m thinking too much.

a new year a new look!

i was reading the entry which i wrote abt a year ago and i realized that i have accomplished none of the things which i planned to do in 2008. what does this show? wells, things are always not within my control and when unexpected stuff happens, it might not necessarily be a bad thing haha.

2008 has been an eventful one..my 21st party, internship, batam trip with my girls, first overseas trip with jimmy and his family,  chek jawa, triple dates hahah okie i cant remember already, will update this portion of my entry once my brain functions faster haha!

but there are certain things which i wish i could have done better and i wish i had put in more effort in handling them. sighs.

sad things aside, i’m just simply grateful to be blessed with people who are genuine to me and who are always there to pick me up when i fall. merci beaucoup 🙂 right now, i’m just looking forward to 2009 and the surprises that it will bring along. ciao 🙂