spell: WHOA

whoa.

it was certainly one hell of a ride: all the ups and downs, all the tears, all the anger. man, i’m glad and amazed that i survived unscathed. and i really have to thank the mighty Him for seeing me through this difficult period and for giving me the strength and courage to face all the madness. 

no worries, all’s well now 🙂 thanks for the concern babes!muack!

anyway i went for kh’s 21st which was held at giraffe on sat. great night great party:) and it kinda got me excited abt my own 21st haha. ya, i hope that all whom i’ve invited to my 21st have received the invitation. i’m excited abt my party!:p

everything seems to be a tad too fragile

battered and hurt

my heart needs a little getaway

candy kisses

the invitation card for my 21st which is painstaking made by my dearest cara:) i’ll be sending the invitations out real soon k, go check out your letter box soon! good night world.

shoes!

    

i bought these new loves on sun! it’s so pretty and it’s easy to match! i love the pattern, i had one pair of flats which had a similar pattern but it was spoilt and beyond repair. aniway my feet now are covered with blisters right now 😦 but i’ll conquer this pair of shoes no matter how many blisters it takes haha

he told me this, “once you have made the decision, you shouldn’t look back.”

this is more difficult than i thought it would be.

i heart you.

the weekend was simply great 🙂

sat morning was spent lazing in bed and playing with my niece. the afternoon and night time was spent with jimmy. we went to some warehse sale where he got a $20 dockers top,  later we went out with his frens for dinner and dota-ed. on sun, went for the IT show, service followed by a mini shopping trip :p

i think many think that jimmy & i argued quite a bit, which i admit it’s something pretty true. things now are certainly getting better although we still have rough patches here & there. our love aint perfect, that i know. but which love out there is perfect besides god’s love? i just know that whatever that happens, at the end of the day, we still love and care abt each other alot. n we’ll be by each other’s side whenever the other has problems. i guess that’s all that matters.

n one last thing. i chose to pull out and yes, i’m upset. i know that more can be done to improve the situation but when u feel alone in a teamwork effort, things just seem to become meaningless. 

somehow i was contemplating whether to password protect this entry.

c’est une mal semaine.

for this week i had 2 tests, an oral and ya i fell sick. wonderful. anyway i think the french test is kinda like a goner? sigh. oh wells, enough of this already.

anyway these days i’ve been feeling a little off, in the sense of being unstable. cried quite a bit and basically been an emotional wreck. poor jimmy has to put up with this. but really appreciate that you’ve been by my side all these while 🙂

the problem with me is that i hold on to lots of emotional baggage and it’s draining on my part. i’m just so afraid of hurts, new ones, so i kind of use the old hurts and scars to cushion the impact of the new ones. i hope this makes sense. i know this shouldn’t be the way but what can i do abt this habit of mine? old habits die hard.

and there’s this other issue that’s bothering me. i kind of made up my mind already but at the same time i’m in a dilemma? there are problems which are here to stay but on the other hand it’s really difficult to give up on something in which you’ve put much effort in.

i’m vexed.

assez assez. je veux être un enfant sans problèmes.